Tuesday, July 27, 2010

yesterday was really a fcuking bad day i swear. i really didnt seh. im only asking for you to be back. i cried badly. i called u time and again yet u scolded me like fucking hell. u said dunno how many fking guys hv fucked me before, im a fucking dancer, look at this LOK me. LOL. why ah , why must u hurt me with ur wrds. i was almost admitted to hospital yet u cldnt even bother. u still ask me go jummp down perhaps den u wld forgive me, i swear. if voxy didnt suddenly found me, i'll jump down to beg for ur forgivness. but think back, am i th only one at fault? am i? didnt u did anything b4? u said u beg me but u didnt put in effort b4. how abt me? u evenn said even if i hv ur named tattooed, even if on my face u cldnt even fking bother with me this mad girl . hillarous. ya, im mad, all thnx to u . i broke down, all thnx to u . i cried , u hang my phone. i almost admmitedd, u say thats my fking problem and hang up and off ur ph. ure out thr enjoying, fooling arnd. im crying tears shedding everywher i go. why ? why must it be so unfair to me. if i really die, u rly wil forgive me? what u meaant by 3 months? 3 months of me crying and u enjoying outside?

Monday, July 26, 2010

this love seems like it has all come to an ending. your words hurts me deeply as though knives pierced tru my heart. i cried, i sob,i weep. wad else can i do when u;ve changed drastically. i thought this time i would be able to hold on to u. u know tt day, though im drunk, i still rmbr every words u said, i took it seriously. u said, u'll make me ur wife. u ask me to give it a serious thought for 2 weeks. infact i dont need 2 weeks, i can agree with u. u said u wont want me to be ur gf,u want to make me ur wife. i was happy yet contradicte'd. cus i knw daddy wont be happy. but den , i still choosen to forsake everyone, just for you. i did told him abt that, he told me, "好,怀,是你的命,路是自己选的"as long as im happy but he wont be happy.yet u fooled me with ur words, u convince me with ur words. perhaps u just wanna get back at me for treating u lyk this, i didnt blame u. cus i knew is all my fault.bi, i really wanna fight for our happiness. but seems like u changed . u really did, from viet disco to thai disco and to nightclubs. u knw , u're out thr enjoying yet im home crying. i said i'll wait. this time round, im firm. i knw if last mnth, ive kept to my promises, things wouldnt be like this nnow, but u noe how tough how difficult it was during tt one month?i knw ive done many big mistakes but wont u just forgive me once? for the last time? u told me u found a new love. u fall for a girl. i dunno shld i be happy or devastated. im breaking down soon. really. nvr hv i feel so hurt before. u used to love me deeply, i knw ive hurt u.im sorry. i know a million a trillion apology doesnt helps. i shall prove to you tt i really changed. everyone ard me told me to get over u, move on. it isnt worth but i just cant . i really cant! baby, u know how much u meant to me. i dont ask for your wealth, u shld knw it best. i dont fancy ur money. i just wants the devoted and faithful u. the hubby that i used to love infinity. the one tt promised me to go tru thick n thin with me. i dont care wad others wld think cus i knw i love u . and thiis love cld nvr be replace.nvr ever! i thought ive moveed on, but my heart stood rooted to the ground. moved on physically yet my heart wasnt. baby, i promise to wait, even if u're with another new girl, i will still wait patiently for the return on u to undone my mistake for u . i knw u hv no longer hv any feeling for me but im persistent. i wanna be ur wife, still rmbr we wanted to engaged ? i dont mind if we live in 1 room flat , i dont mind me working . i dont mind everything. im willing to go tru all hard ships with u . im prepared for all this. our so called engagement right i still wears. i wld nvr ever remove it till till my v.last breath. im speaking fromth bottom of my true heat. u told me u only love forgenier girls now. (: silly baby, i'lll wait as long as i cld(: i promise u . u shall be my last love. now and always!





靜 - 心墙 English lyrics:Looking over the bluish green sea and blue sky all alone.Inside my heart, it gets plastered a bit.Dolphins are passing through in front of me.I just saw the brightest smile.Good times should always be treasured.I learned not to worry too much.Don't plan too much, instead be brave and go on an adventure.Spend every day abundantly, enjoy each day wooh~ The first time I met you the cloudy day covered the side of your face.What kind of story do you have, I really want to know.I feel that I understand your specialness.You're heart has a wall, but I discovered a window.Sometimes you revealed a trace of warm gleam.Even if you have a wall.My love will climb up on the windowsill and flourishly open it.Open the window and you'll see your sadness dissolve.I learned not to worry too much.Don't plan too much, instead be brave and go on an adventure.Spend every day abundantly, enjoy each day wooh~ The first time I met you the cloudy day covered the side of your face.What kind of story do you have, I really want to know.I feel that I understand your specialness.You're heart has a wall, but I discovered a window.Sometimes you revealed a trace of warm gleam.Even if you have a wall.My love will climb up on the windowsill and flourishly open it.Open the window and you'll see your sadness dissolve.Oh ~ You're heart has a wall, but I discovered a window.Sometimes you revealed a trace of warm gleam.Oh ~ Even if you have a wall.My love will climb up on the windowsill and flourishly open it.Open the window and you'll see your sadness dissolve.You will be able to smell the clear fragrant of happiness

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

have been hving dream of you.
dreaming of you with other girls yet i hv to put on a strong front.
i woke up with a smile,tat i dreamt of u .
tho it hurts,
but still, i smile tt u're blissful.
asked why wld i dreamt of u ?
weird dream, perhaps cus i miss u too much.

I act cool, act as though i cldnt be bothered,
play hard to gt,
Act like i hv let go.....
but my heart ache,
image of u appearing everynow n then,
to be frank, u arent perfect,
yet i still choose to love u perfectly.

it hurts. but i knw is a gd thing too.
distance felt, heart aching who to tell to?
everyone knw who i love th most even w/o me telling.
everyone knw who i misses most even w/o saying a single wrd.

sometimes i wonder ,
what u're dng, where r u ? and hows everything gg on?
i knw this time round is my fault.
i still cn act till so cool by saying thanks and may god bless u toO.
HAHA, what a joke.
cus i knw,
i knw i hv and i must let go.
tho i felt stupid and rather impulsive on mking this decision but still i nvr regret.
cus i knw u wont be happy with th presence me.

no matter how far i walked,
how many ppl ive met,
how many bf i chnged,
there's noone tt i cn love like how i used to.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPXkvSJCPso

Sunday, July 4, 2010

as time goes by ,,
his face slowly disappearing
from my mind . his name ,,
his call and his text msgs
slowly disappear too .
i'm slowly starting to get used to
it .slowly ,,
i'll forget his smell and his
everything . and i know is over now...(:

thanks for ur well wishes,
i would last with him.
thanks for your blessing, i'll move on happily.
tkc, much misses~