yesterday was really a fcuking bad day i swear. i really didnt seh. im only asking for you to be back. i cried badly. i called u time and again yet u scolded me like fucking hell. u said dunno how many fking guys hv fucked me before, im a fucking dancer, look at this LOK me. LOL. why ah , why must u hurt me with ur wrds. i was almost admitted to hospital yet u cldnt even bother. u still ask me go jummp down perhaps den u wld forgive me, i swear. if voxy didnt suddenly found me, i'll jump down to beg for ur forgivness. but think back, am i th only one at fault? am i? didnt u did anything b4? u said u beg me but u didnt put in effort b4. how abt me? u evenn said even if i hv ur named tattooed, even if on my face u cldnt even fking bother with me this mad girl . hillarous. ya, im mad, all thnx to u . i broke down, all thnx to u . i cried , u hang my phone. i almost admmitedd, u say thats my fking problem and hang up and off ur ph. ure out thr enjoying, fooling arnd. im crying tears shedding everywher i go. why ? why must it be so unfair to me. if i really die, u rly wil forgive me? what u meaant by 3 months? 3 months of me crying and u enjoying outside?

this love seems like it has all come to an ending. your words hurts me deeply as though knives pierced tru my heart. i cried, i sob,i weep. wad else can i do when u;ve changed drastically. i thought this time i would be able to hold on to u. u know tt day, though im drunk, i still rmbr every words u said, i took it seriously. u said, u'll make me ur wife. u ask me to give it a serious thought for 2 weeks. infact i dont need 2 weeks, i can agree with u. u said u wont want me to be ur gf,u want to make me ur wife. i was happy yet contradicte'd. cus i knw daddy wont be happy. but den , i still choosen to forsake everyone, just for you. i did told him abt that, he told me, "好,怀,是你的命,路是自己选的"as long as im happy but he wont be happy.yet u fooled me with ur words, u convince me with ur words. perhaps u just wanna get back at me for treating u lyk this, i didnt blame u. cus i knew is all my fault.bi, i really wanna fight for our happiness. but seems like u changed . u really did, from viet disco to thai disco and to nightclubs. u knw , u're out thr enjoying yet im home crying. i said i'll wait. this time round, im firm. i knw if last mnth, ive kept to my promises, things wouldnt be like this nnow, but u noe how tough how difficult it was during tt one month?i knw ive done many big mistakes but wont u just forgive me once? for the last time? u told me u found a new love. u fall for a girl. i dunno shld i be happy or devastated. im breaking down soon. really. nvr hv i feel so hurt before. u used to love me deeply, i knw ive hurt u.im sorry. i know a million a trillion apology doesnt helps. i shall prove to you tt i really changed. everyone ard me told me to get over u, move on. it isnt worth but i just cant . i really cant! baby, u know how much u meant to me. i dont ask for your wealth, u shld knw it best. i dont fancy ur money. i just wants the devoted and faithful u. the hubby that i used to love infinity. the one tt promised me to go tru thick n thin with me. i dont care wad others wld think cus i knw i love u . and thiis love cld nvr be replace.nvr ever! i thought ive moveed on, but my heart stood rooted to the ground. moved on physically yet my heart wasnt. baby, i promise to wait, even if u're with another new girl, i will still wait patiently for the return on u to undone my mistake for u . i knw u hv no longer hv any feeling for me but im persistent. i wanna be ur wife, still rmbr we wanted to engaged ? i dont mind if we live in 1 room flat , i dont mind me working . i dont mind everything. im willing to go tru all hard ships with u . im prepared for all this. our so called engagement right i still wears. i wld nvr ever remove it till till my v.last breath. im speaking fromth bottom of my true heat. u told me u only love forgenier girls now. (: silly baby, i'lll wait as long as i cld(: i promise u . u shall be my last love. now and always!





靜 - 心墙 English lyrics:Looking over the bluish green sea and blue sky all alone.Inside my heart, it gets plastered a bit.Dolphins are passing through in front of me.I just saw the brightest smile.Good times should always be treasured.I learned not to worry too much.Don't plan too much, instead be brave and go on an adventure.Spend every day abundantly, enjoy each day wooh~ The first time I met you the cloudy day covered the side of your face.What kind of story do you have, I really want to know.I feel that I understand your specialness.You're heart has a wall, but I discovered a window.Sometimes you revealed a trace of warm gleam.Even if you have a wall.My love will climb up on the windowsill and flourishly open it.Open the window and you'll see your sadness dissolve.I learned not to worry too much.Don't plan too much, instead be brave and go on an adventure.Spend every day abundantly, enjoy each day wooh~ The first time I met you the cloudy day covered the side of your face.What kind of story do you have, I really want to know.I feel that I understand your specialness.You're heart has a wall, but I discovered a window.Sometimes you revealed a trace of warm gleam.Even if you have a wall.My love will climb up on the windowsill and flourishly open it.Open the window and you'll see your sadness dissolve.Oh ~ You're heart has a wall, but I discovered a window.Sometimes you revealed a trace of warm gleam.Oh ~ Even if you have a wall.My love will climb up on the windowsill and flourishly open it.Open the window and you'll see your sadness dissolve.You will be able to smell the clear fragrant of happiness

have been hving dream of you.
dreaming of you with other girls yet i hv to put on a strong front.
i woke up with a smile,tat i dreamt of u .
tho it hurts,
but still, i smile tt u're blissful.
asked why wld i dreamt of u ?
weird dream, perhaps cus i miss u too much.

I act cool, act as though i cldnt be bothered,
play hard to gt,
Act like i hv let go.....
but my heart ache,
image of u appearing everynow n then,
to be frank, u arent perfect,
yet i still choose to love u perfectly.

it hurts. but i knw is a gd thing too.
distance felt, heart aching who to tell to?
everyone knw who i love th most even w/o me telling.
everyone knw who i misses most even w/o saying a single wrd.

sometimes i wonder ,
what u're dng, where r u ? and hows everything gg on?
i knw this time round is my fault.
i still cn act till so cool by saying thanks and may god bless u toO.
HAHA, what a joke.
cus i knw,
i knw i hv and i must let go.
tho i felt stupid and rather impulsive on mking this decision but still i nvr regret.
cus i knw u wont be happy with th presence me.

no matter how far i walked,
how many ppl ive met,
how many bf i chnged,
there's noone tt i cn love like how i used to.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPXkvSJCPso

as time goes by ,,
his face slowly disappearing
from my mind . his name ,,
his call and his text msgs
slowly disappear too .
i'm slowly starting to get used to
it .slowly ,,
i'll forget his smell and his
everything . and i know is over now...(:

thanks for ur well wishes,
i would last with him.
thanks for your blessing, i'll move on happily.
tkc, much misses~

had been meeting you everyday ever since sunday.
u hv been so uper sweet.
the reason for me to work nightlife,
ure the reason for me to quit too..

u told me to change,
be a gd girl,
be faithful,
wait 3-5 yrs.
do u think i cld?

if u're others, i wont hesistate to tell u i wont wait,
wont even bother to think either,
but diff,
cus i knw,
no matter how long it takes, i wld eventually wait.

i donno what had actually drawn us to be together,
what had cause us to b inseparatble.
what has cus us to love each other,
but i knew,
my love for u are real...

every single thing u asked was th facts,
i didnt lie.

i hope tt nth gonna obstruct us along our ways.
those bitches n jerks,
i hope they wld kindly fcuk off from us far far away.

i cld sense a huge changes in u ,
maybe ur attitude had been diff,
u're much sweeter n dote me more(:
i hope this wld just last.

rmbr,bi,
noone owe anyone a living,
u dont owe me anything.

<3

2 continous days with you,
i felt loved.(:
now i realise ur heart still cnsist of me.
i'm glad that u do still rmbr n cares(:

hasnt been hving any gd slp ever since months back.
nvr felt so swet for a period of time.
though we didnt travelled anywhr ,
but i do enjoyed ur companion. <3

255 days without you.
i misses u like hell...

today mark our 2 yrs 10 mths anni.
if only things werent like this,
if only everything turns out perfectly,
if only u didnt be with vietnams,
if only i wasnt a dancer,
if only i didnt toyed with others...

i realised i know why i wld change bf rapidly,
wasnt cuz im a slut,
wasnt cuz im lack of love,
want cus of any other reason,
neither did i goes to bed with them,
was that i realise , a sense of satisfaction when i hurt someone...

make them falls for me,
and dump them str8 away.

there's no motive of all this but then perhaps i hv been hurt thoroughly.
i no longer knw whats th definition of love,
define it please.

i didnt kknw u causes sucha gr8 impact to my life,
for once, i realised i'm rather dumb.

bet u cnt even bother abt me,
why should i cares so much?
why must i ?

why shld i try asking how's ur everything.

though i did said b4 it wld be better nt to stay in touch.
but whenever i'm all alone,
mind wasnt occupied with things,
i would starts to think of you.

somehow i just wanted u to get outta my life for good.
but seems like the more i want to forgt u,th harder it is.
the harder i tried, all i gt was failure.

things wasnt th same,
grant me 3 wishes,

i wish for just a day to be with u,i wldnt wanna go out, i wld want the whole 24 hrs to be home, just u and me, i promise to cook a sumptious meal for u, mk up everything that i had missed, hugged u tightly to slp . jusst for a day.i wld be contented.

i wish for u to find a stable job soon

i wish for u to stay healthy like b4 rather than drink n drink,
gastric pain and stuff.

u meant alot to me,
u're forever in my mind,
i didnt told u,
i nvr wanted to let u know,
cus i nvr wanna be ur burden.
i dont wan u to stress abt ur future,
i dont wan u to missed out gr8 opportunity cus of me.
i dont wana adds on to ur bruden,ur stress, my bad.

if time cld be back to those days,
i wldnt abort the lil ones,
even if i knw we wldnt be tgt eternity,
i wld gladly gave birth to them.

by now ,
one shld be 2 yrs plus,
another one wld coming to a yr.
if only ...

i hv nvr regretted being with u,
nvr regretted hving ur kids,
nvr ever...

i knw this love had die.
i know things wldnt be the same as usual,
i knowwwww......