had been meeting you everyday ever since sunday.
u hv been so uper sweet.
the reason for me to work nightlife,
ure the reason for me to quit too..

u told me to change,
be a gd girl,
be faithful,
wait 3-5 yrs.
do u think i cld?

if u're others, i wont hesistate to tell u i wont wait,
wont even bother to think either,
but diff,
cus i knw,
no matter how long it takes, i wld eventually wait.

i donno what had actually drawn us to be together,
what had cause us to b inseparatble.
what has cus us to love each other,
but i knew,
my love for u are real...

every single thing u asked was th facts,
i didnt lie.

i hope tt nth gonna obstruct us along our ways.
those bitches n jerks,
i hope they wld kindly fcuk off from us far far away.

i cld sense a huge changes in u ,
maybe ur attitude had been diff,
u're much sweeter n dote me more(:
i hope this wld just last.

rmbr,bi,
noone owe anyone a living,
u dont owe me anything.

<3

2 continous days with you,
i felt loved.(:
now i realise ur heart still cnsist of me.
i'm glad that u do still rmbr n cares(:

hasnt been hving any gd slp ever since months back.
nvr felt so swet for a period of time.
though we didnt travelled anywhr ,
but i do enjoyed ur companion. <3

255 days without you.
i misses u like hell...

today mark our 2 yrs 10 mths anni.
if only things werent like this,
if only everything turns out perfectly,
if only u didnt be with vietnams,
if only i wasnt a dancer,
if only i didnt toyed with others...

i realised i know why i wld change bf rapidly,
wasnt cuz im a slut,
wasnt cuz im lack of love,
want cus of any other reason,
neither did i goes to bed with them,
was that i realise , a sense of satisfaction when i hurt someone...

make them falls for me,
and dump them str8 away.

there's no motive of all this but then perhaps i hv been hurt thoroughly.
i no longer knw whats th definition of love,
define it please.

i didnt kknw u causes sucha gr8 impact to my life,
for once, i realised i'm rather dumb.

bet u cnt even bother abt me,
why should i cares so much?
why must i ?

why shld i try asking how's ur everything.

though i did said b4 it wld be better nt to stay in touch.
but whenever i'm all alone,
mind wasnt occupied with things,
i would starts to think of you.

somehow i just wanted u to get outta my life for good.
but seems like the more i want to forgt u,th harder it is.
the harder i tried, all i gt was failure.

things wasnt th same,
grant me 3 wishes,

i wish for just a day to be with u,i wldnt wanna go out, i wld want the whole 24 hrs to be home, just u and me, i promise to cook a sumptious meal for u, mk up everything that i had missed, hugged u tightly to slp . jusst for a day.i wld be contented.

i wish for u to find a stable job soon

i wish for u to stay healthy like b4 rather than drink n drink,
gastric pain and stuff.

u meant alot to me,
u're forever in my mind,
i didnt told u,
i nvr wanted to let u know,
cus i nvr wanna be ur burden.
i dont wan u to stress abt ur future,
i dont wan u to missed out gr8 opportunity cus of me.
i dont wana adds on to ur bruden,ur stress, my bad.

if time cld be back to those days,
i wldnt abort the lil ones,
even if i knw we wldnt be tgt eternity,
i wld gladly gave birth to them.

by now ,
one shld be 2 yrs plus,
another one wld coming to a yr.
if only ...

i hv nvr regretted being with u,
nvr regretted hving ur kids,
nvr ever...

i knw this love had die.
i know things wldnt be the same as usual,
i knowwwww......

最熟悉的陌生人

had been 254 days wiithout you
Sometimes i do wonder,
is it a good thing to not being in touch?

yea,i do miss u, i wanna hear frm u but i'm afraid to hear things which i doesnt like.

like i always said,
u are the only one that could pick me up when i fall,
the only one that could make me fall,
the only one that had been running tru my mind every now&then.
place&ppl reminds me of you.

days back,
i dreamt of u,
dreamt of u pass-by me,
treat me as tho a stranger twice,
it seems so real...
i woke up immd &
text ur previous number telling you abt the dream but i noe u wont be seeing it cus tt number u no longer using.

ur presence still lingers.

i miss ur silly acts,
i miss being dote by u,
i miss crapping ard with u,
i miss those times whereby we play & fool ard like a kid,
i miss making breakfast for u,
i miss eating supper with u,
i miss ur companion,
i miss ur everything...

things wld nvr be the same,
i rather hear from u by someone elses,
i hope u're happier than before,
i would nvr wanna contact you nor intrude ur life.

thanks for everything... <3

had been insomnia,
perhaps ive think too much,
i always wonder how are u ?
did u take ur meals on time?
hows ur gastric?
hows everything?

if only things were as simple as ABC.

if only my determinations is strong...
if only clock could be unwind...


我走以后,你现在的生活,会不会也偶尔想起我???
是否真的要忘记，才能够放弃。。。

sometimes,
i should thanks u...
thanks u for being so heartless that i would become so protective against others.

i realised,
i couldnt love,
i couldnt find back the love i used to gave u,
i couldnt retrieve it back,

the only reason that i feel happy was browsing back our past memories,


BELONGS TO XIAOLONG

remember this tag?
i remember vividly that u were having ur duty we were chatting over th phone,
u said u hv got a surprise for me,
and the following day, u gave it to me.
though is nothing special or exp,
but is the thoughts that count (:



it states " BIBI i love u,060807"
how sweet, i miss those sweet precious times...


see,
though u are gone, but u're always beside me.
ur verythings everythings still with me,

diamond ring,couple ring,stuffed toys,gold chain,rose,clothes,havainas,
pictures,LV sling,burbery cardholder,ur clothes,ur everything...

by now i suppose u wld realised how much u stands in my heart.
i dont hv to tell,to say, but deep down within,
i knows u meant alot to me.


misses you lots...